I don't have time for this.......

I don't have time for this post today, I don't have time to be sitting here on my computer...checking out the latest news on facebook, checking my friend's list of daily prayer requests that she posts there for all of us to see the needs of our family and friends, I don't have time to read my Sister's blog, or my Cousin's, I don't have time to sit and think of what I would like to blog today, or what cute, funny, neat things my kids did worth blogging about, I don't have time to tell you about the fact that we really need to get a dog at our house because our little Andy is so very missed. Especially by me. I don't have time because you see there is so much to do today: Landmark bills to pay, P.O.'s to request, papers to be filed, a house to clean, laundry to fold and hang, birthday cake ingredients to buy for my Princess (who by the way wants Princesses on one side of the cake...the left to be exact...and Dora on the right.) supper to be lined out for tonight, a birthday gift for a loved one to be delivered, and a shipment to be received and put away in the shop. No, I don't have time for this....but yet, I know, if I don't make time for the small things..those precious moments that do NOT involve cleaning and laundry..but instead make memories with our families or the little things that keep this Momma going...like blogging...then I can't greet each little face in my life today with a smile or each item on my to do list without a groan. So I will make time for this...take a breath...and then grab my to do list...and RUN!!!
Have yourself a memory making kinda day!! Hugs~Kan

Ever had one of those days????

Just pondering tonight...have you ever had one of those days that nothing seems to go right? Where you feel like at the end of the day that all of the decisions you made should have been a little bit better, a little more thought out or a little less rash? Or that the words you spoke throughout the day should have been a little bit kinder, spoken a little bit sweeter, or just plain not been said at all? Yeah, I think we all have those days. The point of them though, is to not repeat them. To learn from them. Remember you are a human who makes mistakes, that thankfully, serves a God who is able to grant you grace and mercy along with each new day. I want 2010 to be the year that I become that woman I see in my mind when I write my New Year's Resolutions...the one that cherishes each and every day..and the one that holds close and tightly the precious people I wake up with in my little world every day. ~Hugs, Kan

~2009 In a Nutshell~

Hello, all!! It seems 2009 just flew by! Although, as it was passing I did not feel that way! haha!

After nearly 8 months in the camper we finally moved into our new home in November! Praise the LORD! We feel so very blessed to have this wonderful home..near our families..to raise our kiddos! Life in the camper was hard on everyone...especially our children...for they too felt the stress of living in a small space and not having all of the little things that they enjoyed in their rooms. Having all your toys packed up except for a just a few or having them scattered to Nana's and MeMe's can be traumatic for a little person....but they handled it like little troopers. We all did...well, you know, except for my occasional meltdowns (every 3-4 weeks) when I would tell anyone who would listen that I could not DO THIS any longer...and then, I would be reminded by someone, usually my Mom...that YES, I COULD do this...with the Good Lord's help! lol!

The most difficult event during the building of our home, was the loss of our beloved poodle. Andrew was 12 1/2 years old, and after a very loved and spoiled life his little heart could not handle chasing "smells" and being our "Wild Poozle" anymore...and with deep sorrow, Chad and I were by his side when he passed from this world. He has a special place on our land and he will forever be in our hearts. What an awesome little friend he was to all of us.

The highlights of the holiday season were that our family was able to host Thanksgiving Lunch, a Christmas Eve Family Get-Together, and even have both sets of cousins come and spend the night during Christmas Break....it was a BLAST! No packing...no traveling...ahhhhh...just what Chad and I have dreamed of for the past 5 years!! =)

Now, we are anxious to see what 2010 will bring!

~Hugs, Kan

Home is Where the Heart Is~

Well, my, my, my. Yes, I know. Crazy to see a new blog from me. Way overdue, you say? You are quite right. So much has happened since I last blogged....SO MUCH! We finally moved every last piece of our lives to Powderly....and currently we are living in a camper trailer as our new house is being built. The concrete has been poured, and this week hopefully framing of the house will start! YAY!! We are trying to make this a happy adventure as the four of us and our poodle live in a 29 foot camper and for the most part...we do a wonderful job! There are those moments though when you think.....I can't take one more day of this...and then, the Good Lord plants someone along your path, much less fortunate than you, and you feel that twinge that only the Holy Spirit can make you feel...and you say outloud..."I'm sorry, Lord." For you know in your heart of hearts that this too shall pass and joy does come in the morning and in the VERY near future you will be past this season of your life and moving on to the next one. I don't know about you, but I wanna be able to hear Him say..."Well done" not just when the times were easy, but especially when I listened to Him and acted in a way pleasing to Him through the tough and so out-of-my-comfort zone times. Being home has brought so many happy times to our little family as we reconnect with those we love......so we know beyond a doubt...that Home IS where the heart is.

Hugs, Kan

You tagged me?!

Okay, everyone, so you know I have this tech-savvy sister, Monica, right?! Well, she tagged me..which means basically because I had this little notion to read her blog this morning that I have to do what she tags me to do...which is to open the fourth folder of my pictures and pick the fourth picture and blog about it. Now, seriously, I am 35, I am a grown woman, I don't have to do what she tells me..really...but I am choosing to do it...because like her, when I saw what that picture was I started to just pick another one..I mean, who would really know which pic is the fourth in my fourth folder..well, just me and the Good Lord of course....so, here it is. Take a really good look. It is a pretty accurate picture of our life.

Actually this is a picture from Thanksgiving 2006--Al & Gina came by Mom's house to bring Connor his birthday presents (LOTS) and some special gifts for Kate too. There are many things I realize about this picture as I look at it..and how it relates to the big picture of our life.

As usual my Chad is there...to the side..graciously allowing this event to happen...helping take pictures and joining in when Connor asks Daddy to help him open something, and stepping back at times to let Al have a few moments with Connor---because he knows beyond all doubt that he has my heart and always will....and because he knows Connor is his, 100%....that is one strong man I married. If the shoe were on the other foot...I think I would be a psycho woman...okay, so maybe I already am. =)

Next, I notice my Connor, Connor Bonnor, my "Punkin Doodle" and I talking...we are always talking. Ask Daddy and Kate. haha We were looking at a present and talking about how cool it was. This will be the scenario between the two of us for a lifetime...me beside him, explaining things, hoping he understands, and praying he always knows how much he is loved...by everyone, even those he does not see very often. Trying to answer his questions, and still let the others in the picture keep smiling too, so there are not offenses on any side. You know, I prayed day and night for 2 years before I got pregnant with Connor, thanked God daily for him, on my way to work when I prayed, even before any test showed I was, I thanked God that I was...until I saw the 2 lines on that stick! So, to say any part of my life was a mistake would never happen. Each day, each tear, led me to where I am and gave me the beautiful family I now have.

As for Miss Kate, she's right in the middle of me and Connor. And still is. She loves to love and be loved and act silly. She rounds out the love in our family to make us complete. Connor is a visible sign of Chad and I coming together from two past lives and making a family...Kate is our love story in physical form. Amazing what God can do...isn't it? To take a bunch of pieces of messed up stuff, and put it together to form a love and a life you never dreamed could really happen! Amazing.

As for Al and Gina. Yep, that's them. Al, as always, laughing and cutting up. That is the side to him we all love. He has a great laugh. Connor has that same belly laugh that just cracks you up when he gets 'really' tickled about something. Miss Gina. Well, she's not with Daddy Al anymore, but she was a wonderful part of his life when she was in it. She saw to it that special days were not missed with Connor and that time spent together was the important piece in a visit not just the big hoop-la and presents. She taught me many many life lessons that I would not have learned without her. Because of her, I learned to lean on God...to have the grace and mercy to look at someone who you know took a part in the division of your family and still be able to see her, the person, forgive her, and even be a friend to her. Not a best friend, no, that would not be a good idea, but a friend none the less. It is because of the dissolving of an 8 year marriage, that I can have words of understanding for my friends that have since gone through divorce, that I can learn from the bad and be better this time around as a wife...and that is the reason I can take one look at my handsome husband, and thank God immensely for the life He has now given me, the life Chad provides so well for us, and then sigh a huge sigh and just sit back and enjoy a love like I never thought I would have.

Soooooooo, there you have it. You asked for it. You tagged me...and you got the long story..longer. hahaha

Oh, and by the way, the pic is at my Mom's house, which will always be home to us, its where I grew up, its where I moved out and back in several times especially during the whole divorce thing, its where I lived when I met my Chad and we were dating...its where Chad and I stay when we are visiting Paris, and it is symbolic of the fact that we are moving back HOME now, to Powderly in a few months.

Hug the ones you love and have a wonderful day!

~Kan

Monica's the Smart one...I'm the Crazy one.....

I am sure all of you who read Monica's blog will get this....hahahaha

It appears my cute pic of the kids did not load on my last post, so I entered it here....and yes, I realize I posted 2 of my handsome husband and myself...no, I am not trying to be "all that" but unlike my tech savvy sis....I can't get the silly pic to DELETE so I can add the other. I am sure it is just some simple answer, but being the crazy one, I figured it just made for another reason to post a blog. hahahaa

Have a Happy Day!!

~KB

Thanksgiving & Prayers

Hello! The holidays are upon us!!! Man, are they! It seems we are spending most every weekend from now through Christmas in Paris for various reasons! I keep packing and repacking the suitcase...and washing lots of clothes in between!! haha

We spent Thanksgiving with Chad's family this year...a birthday/Family lunch for PapPaw Rebel's bday..lots of food and watching the kids fish at Aunt Barbara's...and then to Great Granny's....ahhh, the yeast rolls alone are worth the drive!! We visited with Mom & Daddy the day after and spent a little time with them. There is just NEVER enough time to see everyone!!!

Maybe one day.....

There are lots of people close to us right now going through severe medical issues and procedures so please keep those around us and close to us in your prayers!

This weekend we are headed to the big Annual Christmas Parade back home and then to Mom's side of the family's Annual Christmas Party. It has a Polar Express theme this year and all the kiddos and maybe some of us adults...are wearing our PJ's!! Doesn't that sound FUN??!!!

I will post more later...........

Hugs, Kan

Fall Fun!

Hello, Everyone! I know, a blog! How unlike me lately!?! haha
Yes, its been a while since I posted anything, so let me catch you up on what we've been up to.....
let's see, last time I wrote Granny Ree had just made her debut in Heaven....since then......
Chad had a birthday! #38!!
Connor started Kindergarten and we all learned how to get our tails in gear! =)
We went to the Airplane Show as a family this year...last year Daddy and Connor had a Guy Day!My 'Lil Sister Mendy turned the big 3-0 in Sept which means yes, in 11 days I say hello to #35! Isn't that a cool number...35?! I think I may hold on to it for a few years. haha
Connor will be 6 years old in just 2 weeks! He is counting the days!
Halloween lasted a while for us since we went to Paris the weekend before it to the Annual Pumpkin Festival in Paris then did the Trunk or Treating thing at Sonic 2 days before the actual day, and on Halloween had Connor's Harvest Snack at school (since they are only allowed 2 parties a year it couldn't be classified as an official PARTY.)
We have spent the last 3 weekends in Paris due to
the Pumpkin Festival, my twin nephews'
Maverick & Remington's #5 birthday party
last week Chad had some work to do on our land, and we wanted to spend a little time with Pappaw & Granny Belle so we made a little trip to Powderly Friday and on Saturday went up to see my side of the family..
we were supposed to go to Mom & Daddy's Church for their 20th Homecoming but Connor woke up with a temp so we had to come on back to Pilot Point...hopefully we will have more time to visit with both sides of the family at Thanksgiving.

The visits never seem like we have enough time to just talk and visit--trying to run and see everyone gets a little crazy. One day we will be back there though and it will be easier, I hope. We just don't want to waste what precious time we have left with our grandparents. They have all had such a hard time this past year...and then with Granny Ree passing from this life, it makes me want to cherish the time we do have. The hardest thing about Granny Ree not being with us is that we really lost her 12 years ago when Alzheimer's took over, and this time of year always makes Mom and I miss her, because she LOVED this time of year, decorating and cooking and planning family get togethers! We pray we carry on the traditions that were so important to her...and I do not want us to have any regrets for not spending time with those whose legacy we should carry on...in name and in traditions.

This is our busy time of the year to run back and forth! Next week we will be back in Paris, several family members are having tests and surgeries, both sides of the family, thankfully same day though so we can try to be there for them....and then we will be back there again for a few days at Thanksgiving. Please keep our families in your prayers and we will give more details when we can.

Connor has started reading and is doing really well! He has learned about 25 sight words so far and is learning to sound words out...they are taught much differently these days...but I keep encouraging him to sound them out like we were taught in the old days! He has brought home 3 little readers now, and he thinks its so cool when he can read things on tv or on signs as we drive! WE think its pretty cool too! Guess that means we can't spell things out in front of him anymore..YIKES!

We are not going to our special little Church anymore...long story but, we got VERY involved, and very busy and my health kinda acted up, maybe from not resting and stressing too much, and I lost my voice 3 different times for a week at a time over a 6week period 9which meant I couldn't sing) and had to have tests run and medicines changed and needless to say we have decided to step back and go to a Church where everything--ministry wise, kids church, etc is already established and we can just be a part but not have to be so involved in setting up the different areas.

Well, that seems like just a whole bunch of rambling, but I think that catches us up.

Today, Kate and I are headed to Storytime at the library to meet up with some friends so I better go get us ready!

Pics are of the little family at the Pumpkin Festivel, strawberry ice cream cones from Aunt Brenda's store, the kids at the beach on one of our last HOT days, Darth Vader and a Princess Kitty, and my little family at the Airplane Show.

I will write more soon, promise! Blessings and Hugs ~Kan